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Mom,my lifes a mess,
this feel so wrong.
Cant you see I need help?i'm depressed,
Im empty now,is there no where i could belong?
Dont say I didnt speak out see,
cause I did,I screamed,I pleaded!
Its like you never even saw me,
if you ment for me to get this hurt,you succeeded.
Im so use to feeling this way,
being shouted at,being told what a nothing I am.
I bet you dont even realize how much it hurts,the things you say,
how many nights did I sit up crieng,crieng till 4:30 am!
I needed help!some one to talk to,
I needed you Mom..
Was I really that worthless to you?,
where you that ashamed of me?who I was?where I came from?
You pushed me away,
when I needed you most.
You never listend to what I had to say,
never noticed and you thought we were close.
I got to a point that I thought of suicide,
crazy huh,dont you see??Im broken and I cant go on.
I just wish you could see me inside,
Im not you!Im not strong!
You always use to say,
thats just life.
Gotta find your own way,
through the hurt,pain and strife.
'Maybe to you it is,
but now Im telling you this..
There is no point in living with rage,
that way you'll always stay on the same page.'
But thank you for the memories you shared,
the good times I dont regret.
Thank you for the times you pretended to care,
Im your child,that you should never forget.
But as time moved on,
I learned to forgive.
And look where it brought me,im free,im strong,
just dont try and take credit for what I'll someday achive..
By Caro Joubert
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